Narcissitic Family I consider to be psychopathic

[kia1212!]

Hello, after 67 years of living, I realized that I need counseling or therapy to process my life. 25 years of being married to a malignant alcoholic narcissist/psychopath. Met him when I was 14 he was 19. Divorced him in 1999. What contributed greatly to my situation was that my mom was also narcissist/psychopath and my ex used her and my 5 siblings to mob me, ie, gaslight, demean, degrade, and emotionally & psychologically abuse me in my own home, it was sadistic. It was hard for me to recognize that not only did my ex not love me, but my family did not either. I just visited my one of my sisters a couple of weeks ago, and I have considered her to be my best friend with the fact that I have PTSD like you get from wartime. She told me to get out of her home viciously like I can never say a word in my defense. My narcissistic mom brainwashed me family is everything. You don't matter. Giving birth to my daughter made me realize there is no way she is hearing this bull crap. I am still defending myself to my two older sons (44 & 30) and my extended family as to my sanity. It is a never-ending nightmare. My mom died in 2018 and it is time for me to get better. I want to know why people do this to others they supposedly love. I was naive & loyal to the end. Not anymore. I started therapy a month ago, I hope it helps. I want to know how to go no contact. And, am I correct in assuming that my family members are psychopathic as they all deny everything, with no accountability whatsoever? Not one word.