Paranoid or not?
Posted: Thu Jun 18, 2020 3:31 pm
For a long time I've been having trouble distinguishing whether I am paranoid or not when it comes to the P.
My gut feeling has always been screaming that he is out to get me and I occasionally get very scared that he is going to eventually try to kill me or harm me in some way, although we haven't had contact in a while now.
Before, there were some incidents, namely, involving a smear campaign behind my back. Before I knew it was going on I actually had a feeling that it was going on, but worst of all is that all of my friends were trying to convince me that I was completely paranoid. People aren't that bad, they were saying. Later it turned out, I was not paranoid at all. In fact, it was even worse than I suspected.
Now a few strange things have been happening. To describe it most vaguely, my father was anonymously reported for something he didn't do and it affected his income. He provided evidence that the report was false and it was all sorted out. Still, he doesn't know who reported him and most importantly why. This could possibly be explained in other ways and the P never had any contact with my family while we were in contact, but I keep worrying that he might have something to do with these events. He has a lot of contacts willing to do him favors and he has a lot of money. It seems insane that he would go through such length to try to harm me or my family in some way and in another country even, but I don't know what to think anymore. Am I paranoid or am I not paranoid enough?
Is there any information that can be found on this phenomena?
My gut feeling has always been screaming that he is out to get me and I occasionally get very scared that he is going to eventually try to kill me or harm me in some way, although we haven't had contact in a while now.
Before, there were some incidents, namely, involving a smear campaign behind my back. Before I knew it was going on I actually had a feeling that it was going on, but worst of all is that all of my friends were trying to convince me that I was completely paranoid. People aren't that bad, they were saying. Later it turned out, I was not paranoid at all. In fact, it was even worse than I suspected.
Now a few strange things have been happening. To describe it most vaguely, my father was anonymously reported for something he didn't do and it affected his income. He provided evidence that the report was false and it was all sorted out. Still, he doesn't know who reported him and most importantly why. This could possibly be explained in other ways and the P never had any contact with my family while we were in contact, but I keep worrying that he might have something to do with these events. He has a lot of contacts willing to do him favors and he has a lot of money. It seems insane that he would go through such length to try to harm me or my family in some way and in another country even, but I don't know what to think anymore. Am I paranoid or am I not paranoid enough?
Is there any information that can be found on this phenomena?