Sexual assualt

[Juzpeachy]

My stbx husband and I had been living in separate bedrooms for over 2 years do to his lying, cheating, pornography addiction, etc.
I had a 4 1/2 hour face lift surgery, a wheel chair ride to the car, a 5 minute car ride home, and I awoke on my couch to my husband sexually assaulting me. I pressed charges, he blind sided me with divorce papers after cleaning out our bank accounts. I’ve read numerous tests on what the criteria of psychopaths is. He fits the bill on every requirement. The weird Sexual assault component is what I’m having trouble getting over. My head was all wrapped up with along with a bloody drainage tube coming from the side of my head, and when I fought him off of me all he kept yelling was it was my fault because I was so sexy. How do I recover from this? He went to all of our mutual friends half a year ago before the assault and started spreading lies and rumors that i was crazy, etc., so he undermined all of my support system.

[legacycombatant]

The smear campaign is awful, but the predatory sex is a form of debasement. Mine laughingly called it 'surprise sex". you can imagine the smirk. IMHO they don't enjoy the sex, just the pain they cause.